Many Contingencies

I don’t spend a lot of time discussing my own personal life in my blogging. I’m not sure why that is. I guess I’m generally a somewhat guarded person. I also don’t want to presume that the details of my life are interesting to others. When I share certain intimacies, it’s often with a degree of bombast, as if to proclaim my invulnerability: “Look at what I’m telling you, when I could be silently embarassed or ashamed – how ironclad I must be!” Which is, of course, bullshit. I’m terribly vulnerable, sensitive, and soft-bellied after my own fashion, although the distribution of these chinks in the armor follow no predictable pattern.

Tonight I’m alone, reeling after a week spent in a perpetual state of manic anxiety: illogical crying spells, discreet hyperventillation. School is back in session. Having been officially accepted into “the Program,” I look out over the next fifteen months with some imbalanced quantity of determination and terror. I have a limited amount of time to accomplish an absurdly huge roster of goals, many (most?) of which are self-imposed.

I want to keep blogging. I think it’s important to my overall growth as a thinker. It also helps my sanity, and makes me feel connected to some kind of rather ambiguous audience. Read the rest of this entry »

Alyson’s recent installation at the mayor’s office is getting some some under-the-radar attention… here, go check out what snarky blogsters are saying about the work they’ve dubbed (to Alyson’s amused chagrin) Ku Klux Kondoms…